Mixed emotions

For the past few days, I have been intentionally taking off my mind the possibility of me being pregnant again. haha. I don't know why for some reasons, I've been doing that. Since simone is officially a toddler, people are starting to tease me if we want to have another baby and i willl always pretend not to hear them. haha. We'd want at least a 3-year gap but honestly, and this i can speak for the husband too, we're fine with not having one more baby. And I know this decision will change in the future. But as of now, this is how we want it at least. But while I was greatly anticipating for my cycle to turn and simon teased me that I might be pregnant, I felt fine. Scared but fine. Panicky but still fine. haha. Scared of having to go through everything again. Fine because i know we will be. Babies are blessings and their arrivals are always of perfect timing. :)

And then today, my cycle has turned once again. Should we have another baby? That we will find out soon. :) Anyway, that's the way the cookie crumbles.